I once wrote a poem entitled the woman within me. Basically, it was speaking of the ideal me. We all have an ideal person inside of us. It is the woman or man we dream of being or the person we say we will be when we finally grow up completely.
My ideal me, is a woman of many talents. She is a talented writer. She never has to find a dictionary. Her spelling skills are so much better than mine. She also is a more accomplished writer than me. She actually keeps up with that dream writing schedule in my mind. She writes X amounts of articles a week, plus has time for fictional pursuits, as well.
The ideal me is also healthier and you know slimmer. She exercises three to five days a week, as the experts say. She dresses nice as she exercises, too. You know those cute sport shorts and matching bra tops that we see models wearing in the commercials? Well, she can actually pull off wearing those, too.
The ideal me is healthier because she actually remembers to take her vitamins and she actually eats those fruits and vegetables. She doesn’t talk about doing it. She does it.
The ideal me is also organized, all the time. She knows where those receipts are when the insurance companies says she didn’t pay a bill. She doesn’t have to spend two hours wondering where she put it.
The ideal me actually is a lot like me. She looks similar, she acts simliar and she has many of the same dreams. The difference is that she is more put together.
Why is she the way she is and I am the way I am?
1. She doesn’t procrastinate. She knows if she does it today, it will be done.
2. She sets daily and weekly goals.
3. She gets up earlier and she goes to bed earlier. If there is a late night movie on that she wants to see, she tapes it.
4. She rewards herself when she accomplishes what she sets out to do for that day or week. It might be a nice warm cup of cocoa, relaxing on the porch. But it is something.
5. She knows she can’t cut junk food totally out of her life. If she did, she would be unhappy or would feel deprived. But she can set limits on it and she sticks to those limits.
6. She reads the self help articles in magazines and actually incorporates some of the advice into her daily life.
Will I ever be this ideal person that lives in me, the one I can see when I close my eyes really tight? Some days I think I am her. But some days I am just plain on me. Maybe I am actually two people rolled into one.
I guess, instead of asking if I can ever be this ideal person, I will ask you. Do you think you will ever live up to be that ideal person who is living inside of you?