The Melbourne Herald Sun has revealed that troubled pop diva Britney Spears has contemplated suicide and that her family and friends are worried that she might take her own life. Depression and mental illness run through her family: Spears’ grandmother took her own life at the age of 31.
The suicide note was found in the bathroom of Britney’s Beverly Hills home by Sam Lutfi, a friend of Spears, before her recent three-hour standoff with police in which she refused to surrender her sons to a security guard sent by her ex-husband Kevin Federline to pick them up after their visitation with their famous mother. The bizarre incident climaxed with a public mental breakdown, after which she had to be taken by ambulance to the hospital, where she was put in a psychiatric ward.
Britney Spears had lost custody of her sons, and her visitation rights were restricted, because of her strange behavior, which Federline convinced the family court was caused by drugs. However, it increasingly is apparent that Spears’ behavior is rooted in mental illness.
In her suicide note, Britney spoke of her loneliness and her failure to live up to the expectations of both her family and her legions of fans.
ABC News quoted a “close friend” with knowledge of the suicide note, who had given an interview to In Touch magazine.
“”The letter was very [sad]….It was filled with reasons why she shouldn’t live, included lines from poems about death. She said in it she was sorry for never making her life what everyone else wanted. She mentioned how lonely and unfair life could be, how peaceful death seems and how your mind would finally be at ease … She went on and on about wanting to just rest in peace.”
Britney Spears, when asked about the note by The Sun, responded that, “Everybody thinks about death.”
The friend described the suicide note described it as “a cry for help”.
Afflicted with bipolar disorder and possibly suffering from multiple-personality disorder, Britney Spears suffered from post-natal depression after the birth of both her sons. Her marriage to Federline broke up two months after the birth of their second son. Her mental problems have increased of late, exacerbated by drugs, including allegedly methamphetamine.
Friends are worried that the loss of visitation rights to her sons, two-year-old Sean Preston and one-year-old Jayden James, might push her over the edge. Spears was stripped of her visitation rights after missing a date at family court. Britney has failed to act responsibly in her on-going and very public child-custody battle, frequently failing to make court dates. This already has resulted in her temporarily losing custody of her sons.
Recently photographed buying a pregnancy testing-kit, there has been speculation that Spears may be trying to get pregnant to make up for the loss of her sons. However, friend Sam Lufti called Ryan Seacrest during the broadcast of the American Idol star’s radio show and said that Britney is not pregnant and is not marrying her new boyfriend, the British paparazzi photographer Adnan Ghalib.
Britney Spears’ grandmother, Emma Jean Spears, committed suicide at the age of 31 in 1966 after losing a baby son. The child died three days after his birth, and Emma Jean did not get over it. Her suicide shattered the lives of her family. Jamie Spears, Britney’s father, was 13-years-old at the time his mother committed suicide. His two brothers, Willie and June, are homeless vagrants in Louisiana who frequently are in trouble with the law.
The media swarm after Britney Spears like pilot fish in the wake of a Great White Shark. Ex-husband Kevin Federline was quoted as saying that the vast interest in Britney’s problems is because it helps people feel better about themselves.
“I think the infatuation with the whole thing is that watching us go through things makes other people feel normal,” Federline said.
In a development as bizarre as Britney’s recent behavior, which has included exiting a store dressing room in the nude after possibly having sex with her new boyfriend, a Web site has been created that asks fans to predict the date of Spears’ death. WhenIsBritneyGoingtoDie.com is offering a PlayStation3 for the winner.